Thursday, December 30, 2010

Six Months of Shopping in My Closet

"How Much Did You Say That Self-Improvement Was?"
Since the last time that I blogged about personal finance, a lot of things have happened. I left the classroom to work at the network level. I completed a costly degree in Educational Administration. I started taking writing classes and Spanish classes consistently. I consider all of these changes or decisions to be short-term and long-term personal and professional investments. So the costs of paying back graduate loans and the costs of tuition do not get me down. If, however, there were a reparations fairy with well-conditioned locks that viewed the cost of schooling and training as our 21st century version of the "40 acres and a mule" that we never received on this side of the Atlantic back in the day, I would happily accept all loan forgiveness plans and dissolution of mandatory payments.

I'm just sayin....

Where Did All of My Money Go?
What I have noticed, though, is that in my spirit of self-improvement, I have found myself also justifying purchases to stores for outfits, shoes, and accessories-albeit cute- because of the nature of my work, because it was on sale, because I "deserved it", because, because, because....

I also found myself charging lunches for $10 in addition to $5 breakfasts because I was on the run, because I so hungry by the time I ate, or because that was what my co-workers were doing. These credit card charges were in addition to whatever incidental purchases I made in cash: mid-morning runs for tea, cookies, bottled water, blah, blah, and blah.

Because. Because. Because.

I opened up my most recent credit card statement and saw that I had racked up $1,800 worth of debt in the last three months. After I subtracted the costs of tuition, car repairs, and my $16/month gym membership, I was still left facing $900 of credit card debt.

But where did all of the money really go?

Most obviously, the clothes went on my back. And the food, especially the dishes with rich sauces and generous portions contributed to the expansion of hips, booty, and thighs.

"My Family Thanks You!"
But here is the most obvious, yet unspoken place to which my money went: a stranger's dream and a stranger's family's dream of financial security, early retirement, private education from their children, that hip-replacement surgery, or that teeth-whitening treatment not covered by insurance. Whatever. And conversely, my spending to finance someone else's dream has by its very nature prolonged the time that it will take to realize mine.

Kakra, Kakra, The Chicken Will Drink Water
So with that, I have brushed off the old blog and would like to use this as a forum for accountability--for us to start thinking about how our impulse purchases keep us for getting one step closer to investing in something that brings more meaning.

I will save you from having to read until the end of the story because they all end the same: there will always be something cute to buy if you go shopping. So, I have decided to start shopping in my closet and start using the money that I had been spending on clothes toward funding my trip to Costa Rica in August for a Spanish class or towards a down-payment for a condo(or whatever else I may want to do by that time).

Mindful Budgeting Equal Success
I refrain from cutting out buying books or doing my nails monthly for three reasons. The first reason is that I am self-aware and know that eliminating those things from my budget would make me feel deprived. Secondly, the cost of a used book on amazon + shipping and a midweek pedi once a month are a fraction of what I have been spending on clothes yet provide me with such a sense of joy and abundance. Finally, I want to succeed. Success for me is identifying and implementing small changes over a period of time, not completely upsetting the ebb and flow of my life.

"You Talking to Me?"
Actually, I am. What are you thinking? What small shifts in spending can you make toward achieving your meaningful goals and aspirations? In the next entry, we will create SMART goals in order to frame our financial planning. SMART goals can help us become better, stronger, bolder, and more deliberate, and more courageous in all aspects of our lives...